my CUTE babies

I love my babies lately they seem to be getting cutter and cutter love my kids

Christmas already

we got our christmas tree up this past weekend i am not sure it will stay up (meaning the ornaments) since the babies seem to think it is a large toy but as for right now we are trying to get into the season

the girls

kasyn reorganizing the ornaments

kambree helping put up the ornaments

kayden showing off some of the decorations

Jon and myself after the kids were in bed and the tree was up and done

LIfe and FrieNDS

Lately i have thought a lot bout what the true meaning of living is. To some of you this may seem weird but i really have struggled with a few things lately. Like why do children get sent to earth to be abused or taken for granted or why do people get taken away when it seems like they were living there life right. So many questions come and go throughout my day but threw others testimonies and others experiences some of these things are starting to make sense.
Its crazy how others can influence us whether right or wrong. Crazy how others can interpret things that I myself don't understand. Life is full of challenges and we have to be able to rely on others and our own self during these times. Maybe that is why the Lord has put certain people in our lives at certain times. I believe strongly that people come into your life at certain times for certain reasons. Maybe to help you or maybe to help them but I strongly believe that we are all here to help each other get stronger and get through those tough situations.
Living is this life has gotten to be so hard with the world around us. How many times I drop my children off at school and wonder what someone else is going to teach them (possibly something good and possibly something not as good) I worry that they will be influenced by those bad things and pray that I have taught them enough or good enough that they will choose the right decision but shutter to think that i may have left something out. This is when I feel as though i know how Heavely Father feels, he showed us the example and told us how to return to him, but how many times do we choose that wrong path and go a different way.
I am so grateful that i know that I can be forgiven and pray everyday that i can reach out to that person that HE has brought to me to help out. On the other hand i pray for that person that is suppose to ease my burden that they will also choose that right way, weather it be for my childrens sake or myself.
then at the end of the day i think to myself I THINK TO MUCH!

OCtober Is OVer (where dID IT gO)

This month has been crazy with Kambree's birthday, Halloween and normal day to day stuff we have had a lot on our plates. Here are a couple pic that are just randoms of our month in a climps

Kayden posing for the camera with his candy from Grandma Bailey

We also decorated cookies it was a lot of fun we had friends over and the kids said it was the most fun they have EVER HAD!

we were recovering from this aweful flu that has been going around so on Halloween night we stayed home carved pumpkins ate pizza and handed out candy it was very relaxing

Jon getting the "guts" out of the pumpkin

Kambree and her pumpkin

Katelyn and Kyleigh pose for the camera at Kambree's birthday

THat iS What I mEANt to SAY

So one my dear friends posted this and since she is so good with words i decided to copy it over. I feel exactly like this a lot, i can't help but wonder if HE is really trying to get us to "REFOCUS" otherwise we (meaning me) might go on and on and never totally "FOCUS" life goes by so fast and we miss so much when we live in the normal everyday world instead of putting things into perspective like they should be. thanks again friend you are phenomenal in your writings.

sometimes....


i feel i catch myself thinking~ rather than living.
by nobodies fault, but my own.
i think about many things.... but i don't think it is until night time that i actually HEAR myself think.
sometimes i wish i could just switch the flip. Switch it to OFF, mute, pause OR some how
....just put my mind to rest!
this is why I don't read books very often. this is why my husband sometimes, umkay... a lot of times... gets ignored after the kiddos have gone to bed. this is why i don't remember movies. this is why i often times fall asleep earlier than i was planning. this is why i may wake to a sleeping husband on the couch and a dog laying beside a pool of urine (in the sun room). this is why we don't tend to leave the house very early in the mornings. this is why i don't always find the time to get the laundry put away, this is why the kids didn't get a chance to go to the park, color that picture, or do what shoulda, woulda, coulda been so much fun!
this is why some days seem as if they fell short of something.... something that i just mulled right over, without even thinking twice~
ironic BECAUSE at the same time i was thinking too much about something else.
CONFUSED????
this isn't ALWAYS THE CASE, but my point is that MANY cherished hours have been spent.... THINKING.
I think about the kids. I worry about the kids.
I wonder about this... wonder about that.
ONE WORD BEST SUMS THIS UP.
LIFE.
ok, another one... especially in my case.
MOTHERHOOD.
oddly enough, i believe that it is through all this THINKING....
that i have become capable of keeping what is most important in my life
IN FOCUS.
thus i have made adjustments, learned the importance of change, and recognized new personal capabilities.
YOU SEE?
maybe i have just recognized the purpose.
ALL of this for some personal growth i suppose.
That must be it!


As i write this post... i can't help but wonder? .....was i thinking too much again?